Okay, so a few weeks ago my father called to ask me if I had a copy of he and my moms divorce decree. Well I told him that I did not have it but that he should just call and ask mommy for it or at the most he would have to contact the state of the divorce and just request a copy for himself. So I asked him what was up why do you need it daddy? and he said "Well I am trying to buy this house that I live in and they need it" Sounds fishy right? Yeah I thought so...but I left it alone. Anyway he called me last week and said that he had gotten the papers sent to him because my mommy was tripping. So I said " Daddy why did you say that you needed the papers again?" He then pretended like we had such a bad connection that he could not hear me and that he would talk to me later. I really did not think anything else about it.
My dad had mentioned that he had broken up with this chick named "Red" that he had been with for sometime. In fact this is the woman that he left my mom for. Now I am not bitter...okay maybe I am a little but but I never liked her. First of all she used to call our house talking mess to me and my brother when we were kids. My mom was pissed the first time that happened and my daddy begged my mommy not to leave and he changed the number. But guess what???? Yep the bitch called again. Long story short my daddy was with this chick for while and lets put it this way she has a face that only a mother could love. Okay so I know that was a little mean spirited but this subject seems to bring this out in me. Okay I digress because this posting really does not have anything to do with her but I wanted to lay out some history.
Well today my dad starts talking about Red out of the blue and how he is not with her. I said okay because he had told me this a while back. Then he tells me...are you ready for this....he tells me that he got married to some chick that he knows that I would like. She is not Red...in his words she is "black like you baby"...meaning darker complected of course. He goes on to tell me that she has 3 girls and that I have three more sisters...uh did I ask for more sisters? No, I am not being a petulant little brat I just did not plan on becoming part of the Brady bunch when I am knocking the heck out of 40.
Needless to say I was stumped because he never said that he wanted to get married again. Second of all I was pissed (so pissed that I cried) because he just flat out lied to me about why he wanted the divorce papers from my mommy. He lied to her and me about this. My mommy does not want him...they cannot be in the room together for more than a few minutes without fussing.
It honestly drives me crazy. I don't understand why he had to lie. You may have heard the saying " I rather live with a thief than I liar" because at least you know that you have to hide your sh*t. So I am tired of liars especially when it is not necessary. You know they say that your father forms so many of your opinions about men. When I think about it that has been true for me. Whenever I feel as if someone (especially men) are lying to me I just shut them off. I know this is not always the healthiest approach and it may have blocked me from some great things and I am trying not to allow this to have so much power.
Now don't get me wrong I want my daddy to be happy I do but I am hurt because he lied to me. I know that my mom will be stumped too. She has told me that she could never be with him so I know that she will not be upset about not being with him but I know that she will be tripped out. I can't stand liars...did I say that already?
My dad wants me to talk to this chick...nope I don't even know her name yet...and I will because honestly if she loves my dad and makes him happy I really don't have anything against her I just hate that he lied to me. I hate that he did not tell me that he was getting married and just did so on the sneak move. He knows that if I did that he would be highly upset with me. I have another question...How is it that my 65 year old daddy can find someone to get married to and I can't even get a decent date???? Okay, this just isn't fair
After all of that....
Peace and Blessings
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LeShawn's Wedding
These are pictures from my little cousins wedding. I am very happy for her and I am not at all bitter about being the bridesmaid yet again :). 
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