I have not had this feeling for quite sometime. I mean I have been going through my everyday life not really thinking about getting with someone. Now don't get me wrong I do want to have a boyfriend but I think that I have tried to numb myself and not fantasize as much because I don't want to be disappointed. I have been thinking more about what I actually want in a man. I want to meet my soul-mate...hmmm does that person really exist? I think that he does. I want someone who is well...perfect for me. I don't want the perfect person because let's face it that person would be really hard to live with but I do want to have a one of a kind, totally overwhelming love of a lifetime. I see so many of my friends and family experiencing relationships (some good and some not so good) but they are none the less relationships. It has been many years for me but I am still holding on to hope that I will find that person. I know that Mr. Right will not just show up to my door so I am trying to make myself more approachable and I even signed up for a couple of dating sites. Now that has not turned up anything except for a really not so interesting "coffee date" in which the person did not even buy himself any coffee or tea...a little strange. If I got into lots of detail it would most likely be really boring (not unlike the date itself) but at least I tried something new.
